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By Katrin Müller

A precise and unsentimental novel about infertility, control and the quiet collapse of a high-functioning life.

Clara Bergmann, thirty-eight and highly successful, breaks down after a second miscarriage and the diagnosis that she will never have children.

She retreats to a remote clinic, where five summer weeks of therapy, silence and unexpected encounters force her to confront what she has long kept at bay.

With precision and restraint, Katrin Müller traces the defence mechanisms of a woman accustomed to control, and the slow, unsettling process of facing loss, anger and vulnerability.

Avoiding sentimentality, the novel offers a sharp and nuanced perspective on contemporary expectations of performance, the control of the body, and the persistent taboo surrounding female infertility.

Key Facts:

• Publisher: Rotpunktverlag, Zurich

• Language: German (materials available in EN/FR)

• Genre: Literary Fiction

• Themes: Infertility, identity, control, mental health, society

• Rights: Available